as usual, i am unable to sleep completely at night. whenever my days-off come and i am afforded the liberty of leading a normal life, i find myself more than fully awake and alive at night wherein the whole neighborhood is fast asleep.
during this moments, getting up is no problem unlike in the mornings when waking up causes headaches, tired eyes and a foul mood. most of the times, night time sleep also generates dreams of me still at work – troubleshooting computers.
my life has indeed changed. my bio clock certainly has. i’ve received the results of my physical exam and i was aghast to learn i’m now slightly anemic. that my hemoglobin count was below normal. to think that i took pains to ensure my blood was healthy so that i could always be ready to donate it when it’s needed. i’ve derived some sort of great pleasure donating blood.
when i was young i was so scared of the sight and thought of blood. in college, i was a blood donor fanatic. if only i could donate monthly. i made sure that when blood drives where open, i slept the required 8 hours so my BP would fall on the normal range. i ensured my weight would fall within the requirement as well. now i am such a long way from the requirements for donating blood. my weight has fallen dangerously near the cut-off. my BP is so low. and my hemoglobin count says i am slightly anemic.
and the cause of all this? being awake in the dead of the night – for more than 2 months now. and possibly for the next year or so.
indeed, this has been a 180 degree turn.