the rain is pouring and i’m trapped. trapped in a cafe with vampire players and report makers. long into the night they play their computer games – absorbed in the reality fantasy they are living. how they get the money to pay for such will always remain a mystery for me.
anyways its my field trip tomorrow. i mean later. i’m scared to sleep. scared i’ll not wake up on time and i’ll be late. i can’t miss that trip. i paid so much for it. enjoy? i hope so. from the looks of the preparations it seems were in there to sweat it out.
lately, i have known what it means to be beautiful again. to be drawn to HIM again. and to feel HIS warmth and presence. i feel beautiful. in spite of all the madness the end of a semester brings. i can say with confidence in the face of all the pressures pressing me on every side: bring it on! i have HIM with me.