It’s been quite a while since I’ve blogged about anything. I have moved on from documenting bits and pieces of my life; from airing out rants and observations about society and politics; and from posting ghastly stuff I wish to recall no longer about lost loves.
I haven’t stopped. Just became really busy with life. Engrossed with blogging for a profit – trying to make sense where this blog should head on to. I have tried to dance to the tune of other bloggers – thinking if I should write for an audience and get hits and get traffic and get paid. I have dabbled with the thought of just shutting down this blog completely – aghast at what my measly followers would say if they ever unearth the posts of times past.
But alas! The blog remains. Ten years or so? I lost count for I’m afraid I stopped the annual new year posts already? Or it’s just been so long since I’ve written a piece.
But doing a testimonial for a friend recently has unearthed all those verbose vocabularies hidden within me. And without any other outlet these days for unrestricted writing glories using whatever tone of voice I could muster — I have found my long lost love for this blog. After all, I meant for it to contain my thoughts – how I speak – uncensored from all the SEO rules imposed to us by Google so our measly piece of the Internet could be found by whoever wants to find it.
But screw the search engines! This blog was, after all, meant to be private pubic if such a thing ever existed. It isn’t meant to be found by search engines for its meticulously followed SEO rules. But it’s meant to be out there for whoever can relate to such a barrage of words and flow of thoughts.
So will this be the start of regular blog posts? I daresay I do not know. Only my time will tell. If I want to find a release of words then at least I know where to go to.
I am now a real estate blogger broker. In the past year, I managed to secure a license, quit my day job and along with serving in the ministry, practice my real estate license / profession.
It’s no mean feat but it allows me to use what I have learned – and still learning – in digital marketing.
So, as way to link to my new blog, and in order to inform you also, please do visit — www.pangarapkobahay.com — my own site on how you can own your dream home. It contains different projects and I promise, to also include relevant articles and posts about real estate.
Things are going to get better. That’s what I always tell myself when things get rough. An optimist, I choose to look at the brighter side of things always most of the time.
It’s also about accepting the things that I cannot change. Changing the ones I do can. And knowing the difference between both.
That has been a wise quote recently reminded to myself to which I look how it can be applied to my current situation. There’s just so many things I want to do; so many things I want to change that sometimes the sheer magnitude is overwhelming and often, paralyzing.
As I strive to improve and make things better, I end up unable to move or do anything at all. I end up lost and drowned in my heroic attempts and end up questioning the relevance of it all.
But all is not lost. I tell myself. I can always pick myself up, do a breather as is often advised and move forward. The road to becoming better is not an easy one but something that must be tackled.
A friend once said that his greatest fear is mediocrity. That has struck me deep and resonated to my core. I strive for excellence. I push myself to be better. For I fear complacency and being in a plateau with nowhere else to go.
I have always wanted to take this leap of faith. To move from one cashflow quadrant to the next. This time, I am finally able to make it.
I learned from Rich Dad, Poor Dad (and since I got engaged with networking) that the best kind of life is to become financially free. The road to financial freedom means moving from being an employee to a business owner and eventually an investor.
I have been stuck in the employee quadrant for close to 7 years now. I promised myself that when I hit 30, I have to be able to make it on my own. I must have my own business.
However, because I didn’t possess the financial discipline, I have been a slave to the employee rut with close to zero savings to show despite the 7 solid years of working. I did get promoted and learned a lot and though I earned decently, I never managed to save enough.
This has prevented me from taking the leap because I also had to be practical. You cannot just give up on a job and move towards the next quadrant without enough savings.
That is about to end this year. By God’s grace, I am able to confidently make the leap. With enough to sustain me for 2 months should I still not be able to earn enough. I have learned financial discipline. I have learned to become a good steward. Armed not just with knowledge but actual financial results, I am able to take the leap.
But of course I am not taking the leap blindly. I have my options. I have my opportunities.
CALL IT FAITH
When I answered God’s call to apply as a full time ministry worker for our church, I was not sure if I will be able to really sustain the current life I lead – much less pay the bills I currently pay.
But I knew He will never fail me. So I took the leap and declared my resignation from the company and my intent to become a ministry worker.
But this also involved wisdom.
God did not ask me to do it all in one go. It was not a sudden transition. There was a time to prepare. And during the past 6 months, my confidence grew that I can really do it.
I have seen the other opportunities I can take to finally say I am moving forward. I am saying goodbye to employment. Moving on to owning my own job. Eventually, I’ll make it to the other quadrants. But at least, now, I am making a step.
There are times when I am still afraid. When I still feel the fear of moving out of my current comfort zone into the unknown. But these moments I attribute to like that moment when doing extreme sports. When you are about to jump off a high place, you get all nervous but you know there is nothing wrong with the wires holding you. So eventually, you take the plunge and you’re in for the ride of your life.
In the coming months, I will finally be taking this blog down. I will be more active online which means I need to build my brand online. I have some ideas but this smorgasboard of a blog that I had since I began will not be part of it. The age old posts of a young (and immature self) may prove to be detrimental.
So this may very well be my final post.
How I live my life after this – I cannot yet tell. But I am excited for it to happen. So stay tune. Soon, there will be a MOVING SOON sign here.
As they say, a journey of a thousand miles begin with a small step. Achieving a bigger goal consists of achieving several small goals that ultimately build up to this bigger goal.
I have recently been introduced to Nerd Fitness. It was by accident that the blog site was introduced to me through an email subscription. It was lauded for having really cool “hand drawn” graphics.
The site’s background / appeal is to superhero “geeks”. Basically anyone familiar with gaming, anime, Marvel/DC comics, etc. But the mission is to get these geeks to use their geekiness towards achieving physical – and eventually overall – fitness.
As I browsed through the site I was introduced to many unconventional wisdom i.e. breakfast is not the most important meal of the day. The site encourages people to join the “rebellion” towards the mainstream fitness advice the Internet and world in general gives out. It encourages people to ask these best practices and find out what works well for them and to enjoy the process of getting fit.
As I have been recently inspired (thanks Arrow!) to become fit and made fitness goals when 2016 started, finding the site was like a match made in heaven. In the past weeks, I have immersed myself into crafting the ultimate workout for me.
I have embraced a life of regular workouts and healthy diet. And my diet is unconventional at best. It’s a Paleo-inspired diet. I say “inspired” because I am not a purist and basically I just follow Paleo principles in eating. So far, so good. I like the results.
As to workouts, I am preparing my body to be ready for Parkour. 🙂 Such a lofty goal I know but as I said, big goals are achieved by accomplishing smaller ones and thus far, I know I am on the right track.
How do I know for sure? The Nerd Fitness Rebellion Forums has been a tremendous help. I have spent most of my online “social” time there and as a result slashed on my FB social time which I have recently deemed as a waste of time. I caught myself being sucked into the depths of the FB News Feed scrolling it for hours on end. So I slayed the beast and now enjoy a more fruitful online time.
As a sample of how geeky I am right now, I am currently a member of the Assassins Guild. I am part of the sub-team Teen Titans currently training in 3 super powers – Regeneration, Invulnerability and Super Toughness. Last week, I was at the Leaderboards for Super Toughness. This week, I am holding my fort at Invulnerability (currently leading in this superpower).
Geeky right? But every one of those aspect is connected to my real life overall fitness.
What do I get out in the end? Well the achievement of my Epic Quests as I have outlined here: Epic Quest Character.
I imagine my next days to be filled with more adventures as I tackle this big game called Life with these simple and easy daily steps.
For lack of anything better to say – I have re-posted here Mar Roxas’ concession speech delivered yesterday at Balay (LP Headquarters in Cubao):
Magandang hapon po sa ating lahat.
Sinulat ko po ang nais kong sabihin para wala akong makalimutan:
Gusto ko pong magsimula sa isang taos-pusong pasasalamat. Sa mga kababayan natin na kumaway, nakipagkamay, at kumopkop sa amin ni Leni nang bumisita kami sa inyong mga lugar. Marmaming salamat sa inyo.
Sa mga nagtiwala hindi lang sa akin, pero pati na rin sa mga prinsipyo na ipinaglalaban natin. Maraming-maraming salamat. Sa mga kababayan natin na habang kinakamayan ako, tiningnan ako nang mata sa mata at sinabihang ako ng “God bless you. Ipaglaban mo kami. Huwag mo kaming pababayaan.” Maraming salamat.
Salamat kay Pangulong Noynoy Aquino at sa kanyang pamilya. Sa ating partido, Partido Liberal, at sa kanyang mga kaalyadong partido. Salamat sa mga CSOs, mga NGOs, sa Silent Majority, sa mga ordinaryong mamamayan. Sa lahat sa inyo ng mga volunteers, sa aking pamilya—nandito ang aking misis, si Korina—sa ating mga kaibigan. Sa lahat pong tumayo, to all of you who took up the cudgels, who shared in our aspirations, na nakasama kong tumayo, maraming-maraming salamat sa inyong lahat.
Araw-araw, kasama ko kayo na humarap sa lahat ng hamon. Alam ko na marami sa inyo, stuck your necks out sa laban na ito. Pero sa kabila ng lahat, hindi kayo bumitaw. Nanindigan kayo. Sinamahan n’yo ako hanggang sa dulo. For that, I am very grateful.
Ngayon, hindi pa tapos ang laban ni Leni. Angat siya, lumalaban siya. Patuloy tayong magbantay, manalig, at sumuporta. Siguraduhin nating mabibilang nang tama ang kanyang boto.
At habang ginagawa natin ito para kay Leni, simulan na natin ang pagbuo sa minamahal nating bansa. Galangin at tanggapin natin ang pasya ng ating mga kababayan. Ayon sa unofficial count ng COMELEC, malinaw na si Mayor Rodrigo Duterte ang magiging susunod na pangulo ng Republika ng Pilipinas.
Digong, I wish you success. Ang iyong tagumpay ay tagumpay ng ating sambayanan at ng ating bansa.
Mga kababayan, higit pa sa pagiging supporter o kapartido ng kahit sinong kandidato – Pilipino tayo. Maka-Diyos, may pakikitungo, may malasakit sa kapwa, at naniniwalang lahat ng mahahalaga sa buhay ay pinaghihirapan.
Patuloy nating ipaglaban ang mga prinsipyong ito. Ibigay natin ang lahat ng ating makakaya para makamit ang ating kolektibong mithiin. Ipakita natin – sa bawat salita, sa bawat gawa, sa bawat kilos natin – ang tunay na diwa ng pagiging Pilipino.
I read somewhere that it is not the battle or the conquest that we remember. But the soldier who stood beside us, na tumutoo sa atin, who we treasure the most. Sa inyong lahat, maraming-maraming salamat. Hindi ko po kayo makakalimutan.
Mga kababayan, isang walang kapantay na karangalan na maging tagapagwagayway ng ating bandila. To have carried our flag. To have fought the good fight. To have kept the faith. To have finished the race.
Maraming-maraming salamat sa inyong lahat. Mabuhay ang Pilipinas!
I love you all!
There are many tears in the room. Let me tell you: this is not a time for tears. For our country, we have had a peaceful successful transfer of power. It’s not about me. It’s not about anyone. It’s about how we love our country and how we’ll do all that we can can for her. She’s the only one.
Maraming salamat po.
We have stood and fought hard for him amid the criticisms of friends. We distributed campaign materials. We prayed. We believed.
Well, the country has chosen its leader and I support the winner. I sure hope he turns out the man his supporters believe him to be.
Elections is over. The most divisive and brutal election season I have ever encountered is finally drawing to a close. Mar Roxas and Grace Poe, the two “closest” rivals to Duterte has conceded defeat.
While I have already prepared myself for a Duterte presidency, I cannot begin to fathom or accept how people can vote for Bongbong Marcos. How easy it is for people to forget the atrocities of Marcos’ regime. How apparently senseless the death of Ninoy Aquino and countless other martyrs have been.
Before I have resigned myself that should Duterte win, I may as well watch him and make sure he does bring the change he claims he will do to our country — the scary violent change he promises. I told myself, I may even consider going to public office – working for the government – in order to watch from within.
But as of late, I have been thinking of a different thing. I am led to believe that it is hopeless and just want to do away with everything. Let go of my nationalistic tendencies and turn my back to actually making a positive change in this country through servant leadership. I have thought about, one day, running for president – even claiming this as my biggest ambition in life. An ambition born not because of greed or hunger for power but because of a real desire to serve the Filipino nation. Call it my highest form of idealism (or should it be idiocy?).
Seeing how brutal the last election was, I am led to question how, an honest public servant, can really withstand the mudslinging and stress of the candidacy. But I can push on had I have more belief in the Filipino nation whom I wish to serve. Sadly, that belief evaporated as I saw more and more people willing to go back to the times of the past.
Will I be selfish if I try to be more pragmatic and choose my family’s well being first? A well-being that I can assure if I go to a first class nation – and in the process – bring them with me too. A place that will offer peace and prosperity albeit far from the native land – a land I am no longer sure of what it is becoming of.
At this point I don’t know what to believe of my countrymen anymore. I am moved to apathy – jaded by the calls to nationalism. How can someone be nationalistic in a land that is divided all on its own?
With the Presidential elections just around the corner, everyone seems to have made up their mind who to vote. I have declared my choice of Mar Roxas as President and I am a known supporter of Leni Robredo since the beginning so my choice is clear.
But there are still undecideds among our midst that I try to campaign (convince) with my choice. Not that I want to impose my choice on them but that I want them to also go through the same process of rationalization I did for their choice.
The same rationalization process I push with those who’ve made up their mind also.
I simply begin by asking the innocent question of Why him (or her)? and follow up the answers with supplementary questions.
While some have been accommodating in answering my thought provoking questions even if it leads them to dead ends they can’t answer, others simply gave up at the first instance. But the saddest – and for me the worst answer I’ve received – is a declaration of hopelessness for the country.
I was dismayed when I heard that even with the elections coming up, nothing changes. It’s all just the same. The powerful stay in power, the rich becomes richer, the poor gets poorer, etc. Better go to another country. There’s no hope for change here.
I cringe at the lack of ownership. The lack of nationalistic spirit. We may all agree to disagree on our choice for president but to claim that whatever happens, whoever we vote for, nothing will change is tantamount to saying our democracy has failed us.
This lack of hope will be the downfall of our nation for we have resigned ourselves to the perceived lie that nothing can be done about the woes of our country.
But there is hope. Change is already happening. Let us not be blind to it. Let us not wash our hands of it. Change is happening – and we are part of that change.
Today I read this article in ABS-CBN News Online about the social commentary of Dolce Amore, a prime time soap about the degenerating status of heritage sites in Manila. The show went to Paco Park which I’ve also visited and found to be barely maintained. They also went to Luneta Park and discussed how the local government can allow, in the name of increased revenues, an eyesore to be built.
I find it really sad that the local government of Manila has failed to identify what the city is capable of. In a bid to be like Makati or Quezon City or the other cities in Metro Manila, they have allowed capitalists to enter and build business structures around the city – in the process destroying the heritage sites.
Manila could have been a great city had it stuck to a well-thought out development plan. She could have been an old university town filled with various universities and cultural sites. They could have concentrated on that – developing a vibrant, safe and pollution-free (or lessened) university belt. Sadly, even though there are many universities in the area, the students live in fear of petty criminals and risk their lives in vehicle-infested roads. Slums surround the campuses adding to the pollution and derelict view of the area.
Parks – pocket parks – are virtually non-existent since those that exist have become home to homeless people. The only lung in Manila left has been virtually forgotten. The once grand architectural wonder buildings have been discarded – left to rot until they are eventually destroyed to make way for “better and modern” ones.
I am saddened that my children may never see Manila with her cultural heritage intact. I, myself, am sad that what I see are mere vestiges of a once glorious past.
Shall I stay on the sidelines? But what can I do?
A visit to these derelict sites, which I’ve always planned but never do, is, I believe, the start.
Before, the only comic superheroes I was a fan of were the X-Men. I watched the cartoon series, read some of the comics and was ecstatic when the movie franchise came out. After a series of failed super hero movie franchises which I won’t mention anymore, the genre has once again boomed with Marvel’s success with their Marvel Cinematic Universe. A success that the DC Cinematic Universe hopes to follow.
But the two are different as what the Batman vs Superman movie would show you.
After becoming a fan of the DC Universe through watching the current series of Gotham, The Flash and Arrow, I know that I would expect a serious and dark movie. After all, Man of Steel was bordering on boring and the Batman series of the recent past were all dark.
So the lack of humor was not a surprise for me. Critics said it made the movie boring and some writers I read said they were able to sleep at the first part of the show. They criticized the film for having an action-packed sequence only towards the end.
The movie was also criticized for not having overarching story lines and for the character expositions to be really poor. I overheard someone say she was disappointed because Wonder Woman appeared out of thin air without her usual transformations (I guess she was accustomed to the old depictions of Wonder Woman).
I also read a criticism that said the movie should be called something else because the title was a misnomer. It wasn’t Batman vs Superman. It was Batman and Superman vs Doomsday. Another critic said the mere mention of Batman’s mother’s name as being the catalyst to stop the fight and have the two superheroes acting as BFFs was absurd.
For me, it’s all these criticisms that are absurd!
I guess for someone not familiar with the DC Universe and expecting long explanations of why things are happening then they would really be disappointed. The movie forces you to think outside the screen, read between the sequences and understand why something is happening.
I perfectly understood why the African crisis had to happen. For me, that didn’t need any additional exposition. It was the catalyst for why the opinion of Superman was divided. It helped in the framework of the movie that here was a guy with super powers wanting to do good but his superpowers actually cause harm as he does good. Where can you see someone destroying buildings as he tries to destroy the enemy? Superman isn’t really that super. He’s just a really strong alien who needs Batman’s tactics in order to be more effective.
I love the discourse about whether someone like Superman should be regulated and the debate within Superman if he is doing the right thing. It shows that the guy is human and despite his super powers is someone who didn’t ask to become a hero. He was simply inherently good and wants to do good inside but like most people, sometimes doing good without proper wisdom will mean causing harm to others.
I perfectly understood why Batman had to be obsessed with killing Superman. And why he acted the way he did. His sole goal is to save his city – keep it safe. He’s a vigilante so he doesn’t want to be perceived as a hero, only as someone the criminals are scared of. Obviously, someone with super powers who seems to do more harm than good in his quest to be a hero must be tamed (or even put out).
I love how Batman’s ingenuity and resourcefulness was shown despite him fighting a super human – someone he clearly cannot battle defeat – not without his schemes. I applauded inside as Batman’s careful planning – his traps and what-nots – lured Superman and led him to have the upper hand. I can hear Oliver’s (Green Arrow) words about a fight being all about control and understanding your surroundings.
I know why the movie was titled Batman vs Superman – because that was what the movie was really about. It was about the world – and those who claim to protect it – understanding what a super human can do. Batman was the epitome of the world who wants to control what it cannot understand. When the legal way become impossible, then the vigilante brand of justice had to be exacted.
I love how Wonder Woman appeared, how her powers were shown in the battle and how it left me hanging and excited for when those powers – and her character – will be explained in due time. There is a reason why her movie will be an origin one unlike those of The Flash and Cyborg which will begin in the present day. As someone who watched the old Wonder Woman movie, seeing her powers in action during the battle made me ohh and ahh as I remember in my mind what each of those can do.
Every time Lex Luthor appeared, I wanted to cringe and punch him in the face. I didn’t like the guy and his insane antics not to mention his schemes. A friend hated him for being whiny. I don’t recall the Lex Luthor of the old Superman movies (just that he was a much older guy) so I don’t know how he should have been portrayed. But if the goal was to create an irritating villain, Jesse Eisenberg definitely delivered.
I am not so sure I can agree to see a Flash that is not Grant Gustin but I’ve come to accept that the Ezra Miller version of the Flash will be a different portrayal from the Flash in the TV Series. Whether I will like him as the Flash is yet to be seen.
Down to the last scene – which I won’t spoil – I was watching at the edge of my seat, excited for something to happen be it in the current movie or in the next one.
Despite having read countless reviews and to an effect spoiling the movie for myself, I still went in to watch it in the big screen and felt every peso I spent worth it. The thrill was real – in fact more real than what I feel watching Marvel’s movies. My heart beat raced in more than one occasion and my mind shot fireworks as I understand each sequence more and more.
It was an amazing movie and I’m proud to say I loved it. It’s one of the best movie I’ve watched in the big screen and I am excited for the next installment which will be Suicide Squad showing in August 2016. I just hope they don’t try to push Suicide Squad to be more like a Marvel movie (I’ve heard they were re-shooting to add more humor after the criticism of Batman vs Superman).
So if you haven’t watched the movie yet, do yourself a favor and go see it in the big screen. Not from some pirated DVD (which sadly I saw was being sold as I crossed an overpass after watching the movie). It’s totally worth it to experience in the big screen.
Go there devoid of expectations despite having read so many reviews like this one. Then form a verdict for yourself.